So on May 23rd my lovely little boy was discharged from the hospital...now begins the fun part. What the heck do I do with this child now that I have no help?
Don't get me wrong, I'm happy to finally be done with trips to the hospital 6 times a day, but now Jeff and I are responsible for all these tasks with a baby who was just released from the NICU...scary stuff.
Not only that but I'm a roller coaster of emotions. One minute I'm euphoric over being a mother the next minute I'm sobbing over my coffee because I just watched the coffee commercial where the daughter tells her dad she is getting married - I thought those hormones were done with!
I'm so stoked to finally be able to eat what I want to, but all the things that I love make my kid have gas....so back to a bland diet because after 1 week of being home, I was making my kid a bloated mess through my breast milk. Not to mention that my bladder shot so every time I sneeze or laugh I pee myself.
You also hear these stories about how women wear their own jeans home after giving birth...BS! I was still in maternity pants and about 2 sizes bigger than my pre-pregnancy body. While visiting the hospital, several people asked me when I was delivering and if I was having twins...You know what people? I don't have a rubber band body and it doesn't bounce right back. Keep your yap shut!
Chase wasn't able to get nursing down because of the feeding issues we had, so I was pumping to a bottle. Nothing is hotter than a mom pumping herself with two cones on her chest 8 hours out of the day. My poor husband continually asked, "Where is that woman in the wedding pictures" because all he saw was a sleep-deprived human cow...but I love my son so I did what I had to do. I pumped for 2 months until there was really nothing left to pump. I tried and I failed at something that is supposed to be so "natural"...I felt bad for a while, but nature just wasn't on my side for that one, so all you mom's who have trouble. Try to let yourself off the hook, although it will be tough for you.
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